Heavenly Father Led Us Through This Sweet Ward Member To Find Them!!

March 2, 2015

YES that is right, I have been out for 6 MONTHS. TIME HAS FLOWWWWWN BY BUT HERE WE ARE. At this time next year I will probably be home. But alas, let us not dwell on the unimportant matters of the future....

Totally I blew 6 euro on some Ben and Jerry’s ice cream to celebrate...worth it!!!!!

So I had to say goodbye to dear Sister Murdock!!!  My companion of 2 transfers in lovely Lübeck. She is in Leipzig now being a cool senior companion. I miss her tons, but so ist es auf mission ya know? I'm grateful and happy that we had 12 solid weeks of all kinds of good times. We really grew a lot together, that's for sure.

Speaking of new companions....SISTER BRIM is here! Here are a few fun facts..

One transfer younger than me

From Spokane Washington

TALL AND GORGEOUS

Hilarious

Really down to earth, and connects to people very easily. Such a natural.

Let the good times roll!

So Tuesday morning, after a member and I saw sister Murdock off... I got to chill!!! haha so Schwester Scheel and I went back to her house. We took their dogs on a gorgeous walk in the neighborhood, made gebrannte mandeln (i seriously ate them all by the end of the day, sis Brim could not believe it hahaha), went and bought our apartment a new toaster, ate breakfast, haha it was really weird being alone. Well without another missionary I mean. But it was so fun!!!

MOM AND DAD YES I DO MY OWN LAUNDRY. sillllllly question. But I can see where this is coming from I guess...

Sooo there is this old investigator in our area book who the sisters lost contact with, and we too could never get a hold of, and he leaves a lil ways out of the way so we never had time to go try and visit him. BUT this week sis brim and I said hey why not lets goooo. 20 euro later and we were there...AND HE WAS THERE. I was goin crazy it was a miracle!! He knew its always weird with transfers, and then he has been way busy, but he was glad to see us! He's really cool and knows the Book of Mormon really well. We are going back on Wednesday! I'm stoked!

Yesterday we ate with familie Scheel, potatoes, meat and rotkohl, NEED I SAY MORE?? OH MEINE GÜTE. So schwester Scheel gave me copies of her recipes for the gebrannte mandeln we made on tues, and then for the rotkohl. So as mittages was winding down, Isomehow started talking about how much I love gebrannte mandeln, and schwester Scheel was like, we have time, I can make some right now! AND SHE DID. hahahhaha sister Brim couldn't believe it, hahah I was just laughing. Schw Scheel is the sweetest!! Needless to say we had something to munch on for the rest of the day.

Hghlight of the week!  Last month we had asked a member to pray about a street to where we should go. We had visited most of the street, but decided to save the hoch häuser for another time, uh the apartment buildings I mean? We went there after our eating appointment, and after 30 or 45 minutes or so of nothing, this family let us up. When we said we talk about Jesus Christ and the family they like immediately let us in!!! soooooooo coooooool. They are Muslim, and have been here for almost a year. They really liked talking to us, and we are going back next week to discuss more. They had the cutest little sons!! It was awesome!!! Heavenly Father led us through this sweet ward member to find them!! I know it!  Man I love being a missionary!!

So this morning we went to an appnt with a lady who lives about 20 mins away by bus, we made the appnt on Thurs with her, never talked with her more than just at the door. It was rainy so I was feelin pretty good that we had somewhere to be than outside. Sure enough we got there and there was a note on the door that something had come up and she had to cancel. She said she didn’t have our number (DOCH MEINE FRAU) or she would have called. oohhhhh man so sad!! You know what that means. KLINGELING IN THE RAIN.  Man oh man it was raining. I may or may not have been ohne scarf....getting soaked and not getting let in. BUT then our GML, Bruder Nowak, called, just to see how we were doing. haha he said it was nice to hear my sympatisch and positive voice and it totally made my day! Heavenly Father is always looking out for me. I know He is always there, and He wants to help me with everything. I was reading this week about prayer in Alma 34:17-27. We really should pray about everything, because Father in Heaven REALLY wants to hear about everything FROM US. Sometimes I think, oh He already knows what I am thinking about, or what is hard for me, but I have really learned just to tell Him myself. To pray, and know that I am being heard is really quite one of the most important knowledges I have. DO WE KNOW HIM AS WELL AS HE KNOWS US??

I LOVE IT HERE AND WOULD NOT BE ANYWHERE ELSE. Being in the service of the Lord is the best thing I can do for others and for myself.

MUCH LOVE,

SISTER MITTLEMAN

A Phone Call And Song Was The Icing On The Cake.

February 23, 2015

Hallo und guten Tage liebe freunde und familie.

THANK YOU FOR THE BIRTHDAY WISHES. It was so toll to hear from so many of you, I really appreciate it!! Massive thank you all around!!!

So the rest of my birthday was OFF THE HOOK. In a missionary way of course. My zone leaders called and sang, as did my DL, and then....wait for it....get ready....here we go.... PRESIDENT KOSAK AND SISTER KOSAK CALLED AND SANG AS WELL. Oh meine güte probably the best rendition of happy birthday ever. Highlight of my week. I had said in my email that day to President that it was my birthday, but oh man a phone call and song was the icing on the cake. I wanted to tell you to just send the bday envelope to me, so I don’t have it yet and probs wont get it for a few more weeks or so.. but THANK YOU. ich freue mich schon!

Hardest part, probs the baaaad weather. brrrrrrrr. It’s all good though cause my testimony keeps me warm if you know what I mean.

soooo yes we had transfer calls and sis Murdock is leaving.....TO LEIPZIG. But yes I will be staying!! 3 transfers in one area this is a first and I am stooooked. This will be my 4th comp in 5 transfers, so that is weird. But sooooooo ist es auf mission!! sis Murdock will be comps with someone a transfer YOUNGER than her so this will be fun for her to take the lead. But alas, I have trained her well and know she will continue to be solid. I will be receiving sister BRIM. She is coming from Hildesheim, also a transfer younger than me. Oh man not going to lie I was really hoping for someone older and more experienced than me, but this is the way the Lord intends it to be. So let it be written, so let it be done, right pops?

Investigators are still just simmering over, but our efforts were solid this week. I am just loving this "hard time". The Germans hold such a close place to my heart, man I just loving being here.

Holstentor in Luebeck

I have really learned that the Lord qualifies those He calls. I always think I have to reach a certain level and then I become a useful tool in His hands, but that is FALSCH. I am ready and capable NOW to do whatever He asks of me. Something came to mind about this when I was looking through my notes of what Elder Bednar said to us last year, "don't be perfect, just be worthy" SO TRUE. Do we have to be perfect to get baptized? To go into the Temple? nooo. we must be worthy. jeden Tag müssen wir uns bemühen, besser zu werden.The Lord recognizes every single step of progress we make, not how much we still have to go! As long as we are headed in the right direction, towards Jesus and God, distance does not matter. Alma 37 7 has never hit me harder and deeper than since being a missionary.  We are really nothing. NOTHING.  But we have God on our side, this "unseen power will aid me and you " in this glorious cause and journey. I know it. What a wunder and miracle to know that God loves us, and is there for us. Always.

LIEBE GRÜßE

sister madison mittleman

OH My Goodness I Am 20 Years Oollllllddd. WHAT A LIFE.

February 16, 2015

MEINE LIEBE FAMILIE

 OH meine güte I am 20 years oollllllddd. WHAT A LIFE.

Happy 20th Madison!

Worked this morning. For lunch we had schnitzel, knödel, and rotkohl. sooo gooood. i have yet to buy cake. Then for dinner I will eat a döner. haha i told Jackie, the dude who runs our internet laden that it was my birthday, and he brought me free hot cocoa. Yesss! .Took a mini snooze, got our shopping done, and after this we will do whatever I wannnnt aka PARTYYY in a missionary way of course.

WHAT A FUN WEEK IN UTAH. Thanks sooooo much for the pictures and also for the emails!!!! I am so happy that you all had such a fun time!!! What a precious day for Brody and his family and his posterity even if I may be so bold to say so. Seeing those pictures of you all made me so happy, probs the best thing of today so far! Ich liebe meine Familie!!

One of Hermana (Megan) Mittlemans investigators got BAPTIZED WHAAAAAAAA not gonna lie I was confused because I thought this Alicia frau was like a young person so when I saw the pictures of the older lady I didn't know what was going on but THEN of course I read the email and IT ALL MADE SENSE. naja! Oh wow what a miracle and blessing that baptism was! My little heart is so full of love for my liebe sister, her presh companion, and Alicia. AND BRODY OF COURSE. what a weekend of good times. as hermana Megan says, celebrate heeeey!!!

SO let's talk. This past week was rad. Wednesday we had an appnt with this German lady who just made a termin (appt) out with us. So we went over, and talked about the restoration. When we talked about Joseph smith and the First Vision, she said, "wow why don't more people know about this, this is important?" haha and we were like YES LADY THAT IS CORRECT HENCE SIND WIR DA AUF MISSION: sorry for the denglish but you know what I mean. But we talked about the love of God, and she shared her feelings that she knows, despite all of the hard times that she has faced, that He is always there for her. Tears were shed, and the Spirit was there. Oh my goodness what a tender experience!! I love being a missionary!! Best thing of the week.

LAST WEEK OF THE TRANSFER. oh man I do noooot want my sister Murdock to leave, but so ist es auf mission. naja. I will be stoked for a new comp though, nevertheless. This week we are going to DO WORK together. The final run of the dream team. geht's los!

So last night after planning and after we had talked to elder Mace, sis Murdock was exhausted and went straight to bed. I did the dishes while listening to the motab.  Cue pondering my past year and next year of life. There in our little apartment, chillin in front of the sink, I had such a tender little experience. The song "I am a child of God" has taken on so much more meaning to me. I usually listen to it at least 4 times in a row when it comes on. The fourth verse gets me every time, and last night I was so touched by those sweet truths. " I am a child of God. His promises are sure. Celestial glory shall be mine, if I can but endure." IF I CAN BUT ENDURE: CELSTIAL GLORY IS AT STAKE HERE. Do we even realize that every day!!! Where is our focus?? I am so so so sure that there is more to life than just being here on Earth. I am so grateful to my Vater im Himmel, that He sent me here, and that He has given me EVERYTHING I need to make it back to Him. Our goal is sooooo achievable!!! We can do this!! I know it.

I reach my 6 month mark on the 28th. This time has gone by so fast! I love every single day. haha one of my favorite sights and sounds is a little old German lady opening the door and greating us. Even though we don't always get the response a missionary would hope for, it feels just great to smile and be smiled at in return with a little deutsch goodbye. I love Germany so much. I feel so blessed to be here. EVEN ON MY BIRTHDAY. haha i love sacrificing this time and effort to serve the Lord and His children.

I thought about you all a looot this week. I love you all. Stay real!!!!

liebe grüße,

Sister Madison Mittleman

NOTHING SEPARATES THE DREAM TEAM, NOTHING I TELL YOU NOOOOTHING.

February 9, 2015

TODAY IS THE 9TH WHICH MEANS NEXT MONDAY IS THE 16TH!!!!!

I made a countdown and hung it on our wall, starting with 18 days i think...only one week more of being this teenage mädel. what a life, what a life.

also HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRODY!!!!! I totally made a note to send that last week, but I didn't! Stoked that you will be there for his baptism!! How fun!!!

Oh my gosh can we all just take a moment to acknowledge hermana megan's pics?? awww they made me miss her soooo much! it is so weird just seeing pics of her and thinking that she is doing the exact same thing a world away. NOTHING SEPARATES THE DREAM TEAM, NOTHING I TELL YOU NOOOOTHING.

Anyway...on a more controlled and serious note.

we had interviews with President Kosak this week! our zone training meeting was in hamburg.( pops the chapel in that one pic awhile ago was the hamburg wartenau chapel.) I always get so nervous right before hand, well especially because I knew he would ask me to teach a 3 to 5 minute lesson in german on one of the first 3 lessons, but when i get in there and sit across from him, it's all goood. Just peace and ruhe. I just smile the whole time, oh my goodness i love him so much! he is so funny and full of the spirit!! That was probably the best part of my week! haha i taught him lesson 2, secretly what i was dreading as it is the hardest for me to keep short and simple ESPECIALLY auf deutsch. BUT he complimtented my german and teaching skills. We had a good time together. Just spending time with him lifts my spirits and entire being pretty much.

So the transfer ends two weeks from today, president hinted to me and sister murdock that she will be leaving: super saaad! But so is it in this life. I mean unlike dear hermana megan who is still on her first comp, i might be getting my 4th, haha 6th if you want to count the mtc...I love getting new comps though, and the Lord is in everything. No worries.

Yesterday we didn't have anyone at church, but we still taught our investigator class. the elders had a recent conver there, and then an investigator. both who speak english as a second language. then our gml, who doesnt speak or understand english, then a ward missionary, this recent convert of about a 1 who speaks english, but in a precious way that makes me want to crack up when he talks, and then this other ward member who can understand but not speak so much. so they all sat in the first two rows of the room, and we just across from them. it was quite a funny site and event. 7 men getting nurtured by the good word from the sisters. hahaha not sure what percentage of the class actuallly understood it all. doch, the elders of course, and the new convert and their inv seemed to enjoy it. then there was the ward missionary who said "amen" after i said something good. haha I love church!

laaater we were klingeling and this dude answered the door. we said we had a besondere botshaft about Jesus Christ and the family. he said okay he was interested. so there in the doorway we asked a few questions just to see what he believed in and alles ging los from there!!!! oh man i think we were standing there for about an hour at least! His wife, they were both early twenties, came and was participating too. we were talking about the Priesthood and the Book of Mormon. So as I mentioned maybe recently our mission is reading the BOM this year. Just a day or two ago we read 2 nephi 29, talking about those who will say " a bibel a bibel, we have a bibel." and what not. oh i meant bible. then the Lord slams down with the truth. GOOD STUFF. Sooo of course when this dude started saying pretty much this scripture directly, the thought came to my mind to read it. hahahaha as I read it I didn't dare to look at him. But dont worry it wasn't in a bashy way at all i promise!! Oh man it was a looong conversation. they were really nice and genuinely interested in getting to know what exactly we believed in and what we thought about what joseph smith has "claimed" to have seen. There were several  points in the conversation where I was like, "wow thank you Holy Ghost for helping me with my German" I TOTALLY was aware of the Spirit guiding us. At the end of the conversation this guy was just like,  I dont even know what to say. He wouldn't take a BOM, but we invited him to at least pray about it, that it could be true. After we left we could not stop talking about them!!! It felt so good to be able to share my testimony that I had read and prayed about the Book of Mormon, and received a confirmation through the Holy Ghost that it is true. Nobody can deny our own testimonies. I am sooooo grateful for my testimony. I KNOW THE CHURCH OF JESUS CHRIST HAS BEEN RESTORED THROUGH A PROPHET. ich weiß dass die kirche, die Jesus selbst gegründet hat, wieder auf der Erde ist. mensch! what a wonderful thing it is to have a testimony!!

Thanks for the emails momsy and pops. Loooove them as usual!!! I missss you!!!

I looooove being a missionary in Germany!!! I JUST LOVE IT.

Stay real and stay close to Heavenly Father!

The next time we hear from each other, I will be 20 WOOHOOOOOOO.

LIEBE GRÜßE

Sister madison mittleman

Germany Is Awesome, Lübeck Is Gorgeous, Lots Of People, Lots Of Tourists.

February 2, 2015

Moin liebe familie and freunde!

So I am feeling muuuuch better. But my poor Sister Murdock has sinus pressure that took its toll this week. we were in for about a day and a half. She feels so bad when we have to stay inside, but, alas, we are mortal. tis something that is sometimes out of our control. and to be the best tools in the lord's hands we have to be healthy and rested!!!

Naja. thanks for your emails this week!!! they were solid. especially that stuff from prez eyering, momma. and that pic of you dad was really rad, dad.

So this week was pretty good, in attitude at least! our STLs came on monday, and sister ter horst and sis murdock found someone together!! MIRACLE. we were fasting, and I know the Lord saw our commitment and preparation. haha ill have to tell you a funny story about our fast someday when i get back! our appnt with this guy is wednesday, im stoked to meet him!!!!! WOOHOO.

Our other inv, Catherine, is suppper wishy washy and told us she doesnt want to be wasting our time. I LOVE HER. but to hear things like this is sooo harddd. she does read in the BOM daily, she says, heeeeey. I think a little break is good though, she can never really get her week in order to make time for us, so maybe she needs time to consider and ponder and get more humble. Yes we have been really honest about progressing in the past if you recall, when she is ready, she will be ready!! until then we will just keep supporting her and loving her. Oh man I love catherine!!!

Germany is awesome.Lübeck is gorgeous. Lots of people. lots of tourists. it snowed a few times this past week, which was pretty. otherwise its rainy and pretty chilly. i love seeing old people on bikes and taking strolls during the day. sooo entertaining. Germans are polite, and very honest. love the honesty part the most. eat a lot of meat and potatoes. and rotkohl. I LOVE ROTKOHL.  bakeries on every corner here in the city. what a life!!! the most occurring shops here are the hair salon, die fahrschule (driving school) und die Bäckerei (bakery). looooove me some german pastries.

The transfer is half over already!!! I really want to stay here another transfer, with sis murdock. we are loving it!!!!!

best thing this week happened yesterday. a less active sister in the ward had a birthday on  friday. we had visited with her once or twice before, and seen her at church a few times. so we took her a birthday card last night. right after we gave it to her, she said, in german of course, " hey I need something from you." and of course as missionaries who live to serve others we were like  YES OF COURSE ANYTHING. haha she asked for a Book of Mormon to give to some dude she works with, I think.  IT WAS AWESOME. good thing this prepared servant had one on hand to give to her. we made an appnt with her to come "practice our german" by teaching her, aka strengthening her testimony of the restored gospel of Jesus Christ. after we walked outside, it started snowing with HUGE snowflakes. it was so pretty, and I was feeling so happy and full of the spirit!!! It was awesome!!!!

Also, the zone leaders came to our district meeting on wednesday, which means  elder carpenter came with cinnamon rollls!!!! holy heck sooo goooood. we finished the lot off today. we got to meet elder pinyon, he is pretty chill and from australia. GOOD TIMES.

most challenging? poor sis m not feeling well. also trying not to laugh out loud when people answer the door and just make the worst faces when they see who we are. hahahaha oh man just today I couldn't help but laugh out loud because this girls face was so clearly full of distaste. I loooooooooooove being a missionary!!!

RUTH WAS BAPTIZED!! i will forward the pics from sis Harris. Oh what a heavenly and joyful experience for her!!! I love her so much and could not be more full of joy when I think of what a miracle this is in her life. God is so good. Life is just good. Amen.

Well , alas, I must go. I LOVE YOU. I love being about the Lord's work. I love this calling. I treasure it! Thank you for the prayers and good thoughts. Have a solid week!! loooooove you alllll!!!!!

Liebe grüße,

Sister Mittleman

For 6 Weeks Or So I Heard Jacob Singing Everyday Without Even Knowing It!

January 26, 2015

Many liebe grüße from Germany!!! IT SNOWED THIS WEEK. Really cold, but gorgeous!!!

I love Germany so much. I wish I could tell you how much being here means to me and how much I am loving it!!! Words cannot do my feelings justice!!

DISCOVERY. So Elder Clarke, aka Jacob, (mom note: Jacob Clarke’s family lives in our neighborhood and is a friend of Madison & Megan)
 served in the district I am in now, not in Lübeck but in Delingsdorf. For my entire first transfer our ringtone for the Lübeck elders was two elders singing some frozen song. Not gonna lie it drove me crazy. Alas, I digress. Sister Murdock knew the name of one of the elders singing, but not the other. Then one day we found a picture on the phone of said elder, and his companion! Who do you think it is??? JACOB. So for 6 weeks or so I heard Jacob singing everyday without even knowing it! SO FUN RIGHT? What a life, what a life.

Naja. Cool that you met that girl going to Meg's mission!!! Also HOLLLLLA that Ashes is leaving as well!!!! OH and Hayden!!! How fun!!!

Oh before I forget, Sister Webber and Jensen Familie thank you for the cards!! I finally got them!! I was so happy!!! Many thanks!!!!

So I was not feeling well on Tuesday afternoon, but after some sleep it’s all goooood.

Nothing to report on our investigators, the two you could call inv have no time for us, or have no contact with us. haha unfortunately things are goin' slooow. But we are outside everyday klingeling and talking with people. SO MUCH REJECTION. There are nice people will take a card and say they'll look at mormon.org, but soooo many people are just not interested and want nothing I repeat nothing to do with us. So it is.

Lübeck is trying me. Perhaps that came across in my email last week, but I'll say it again. It is HARD. But I am LOVING it. Embrace the fire!!!!!

Best thing this week? Besides Rittersport being on sale today, I would say one morning this week when the sun was SHINING. It’s been a while since I have actually felt the sun's warmth on my face. I have also just been praying so much this week. I have felt the Holy Ghost in my heart so much this week as well. It keeps me going. I love that feeling! Doesn't get better than that.

Most Challenging. uhhhh having numbers that don't really show our commitment and hard work. naja. Also getting a tinyyyyy email from dear hermana Megan. I know she doesn't have a lot of time, lololol like i always say. But her emails apart from yours make my weeeek.

Sister Murdock surprised me this week with her German. DAS STIMMT ES SOLLTE KEINE ÜBERRASCHUNG SEIN. when you look at who finished her training. hahaha now that the humble pie is down....haha but really! She is doing so well and she is getting more confident in just going for it. awwww yeahhh.

Am I staying warm? hahaha uhhhhh yes. Thermo tights ARE THE BEST. I went and bought another pair, and more socks to wear over those. The wind is mean sometimes, but I have realized that I actually do not get cold too easily. Yes mom I am wearing scarves. But for real for being a Californian, I am handling it pretty well!!

Our zone leaders are coming to our district meeting on Wednesday. One of them is Elder Carpenter, my stud district leader from my first transfer. The other is Elder Pinyon, an Australien!! Talked to him a few times on the phone and he is super chilll and funny. They know what a hard time we are having and are bringing CINNAMON ROLLLS yes you read that right. Elder Carpenter made Sister Norton and me some twice my first transfer. Now 12 weeks later I am getting some again. THEY ARE BOTH SUCH STUDS AND I HAVE MISSIONARY LOVE FOR THEM.

So a funny story that happened this week was when we were on the way home and this dude stopped us and asked where we were from. He was speaking in English. Turns out he was a former inv of the sisters before us. He loves the missionaries and what not, but just can’t accept the Book of Mormon.  BUT HE WONT EVEN READ IT. Maaaan there are only so many things one can say to someone like that. We seriously were out in the snow, I was ohne gloves, talking to this dude and testifying over and over and inviting him to DO SOMETHING instead of just doubting. He was overall really nice, aside from some wacko theories he had. He told me I was very authentic and my testimony comes from the heart. John 7 17. We will come to know the gospel is true by living it!!! I think sister Hinckley said something like that.

WELL. I am livin it up here in Lübeck. Life is good. We are trying and doing our best. I love being a missionary and inviting people to learn more about our Savior and His restored Gospel. I know that Joseph Smith is a prophet called of God. I know that following in the footsteps of Jesus will make us happy.  I know God is real. I know He is VERY aware and mindful of me and my circumstances. I KNOW IT. "If we do what's right we have no need to fear"

MUCH LOVE

Sister Mittleman

PS ruth is getting baptized on Saturday!!!!! AWW YEAHHH WOOHOOOOOO. I loooove her!!!!!

I Love Being In My Own Personal "Wilderness" Out Here If You Know What I Mean.

January 19, 2015

Greetings from Germany!!!!!! Sorry I don't have that much time but I will do my best to get in the good stuff.

LIFE IN LÜBECK THIS WEEK WAS ROUGH

HELLOOOO not too much time but let me try this again.

Yes this week was rough. but ya know what, life is rough!!

SPENT WHAT FEELS LIKE THE WHOLE DAY OF EACH DAY THIS WEEK OUTSIDE GOING TÜR ZU TÜR; KLINGELING AND TALKING TO PEOPLE: not going to lie it was discouraging sometimes. But attitude is everything I have learned. Some days were harder than others, what for emotional problems, etc. Sometimes peoples coldness hurts more than at other times. naja. so ist es.

I have really realized how much I love being on a mission, and sharing the Gospel of Jesus Christ. If I didn’t know that this is the right place for me to be in then there is no way I would be here. I have really learned how important it is for each of us to cultivate and continually develop our testimonies. If we have a testimony, let us recognize how blessed we are!! If people really knew what was at stake for our time here on earth, they would be asking us to be baptized. But that's not how it is. Heavenly Father has a plan. We all accepted this plan. We need to help others remember that they accepted this plan too.

We have received sooo much rejection this past week! BUT I know that the Lord has prepared people here in Lübeck. We just need to find them. Hard it is, yes. But worth it, of course.

Saturday night  I threw up three times!! I was sooo weak and achy yesterday. Just slept all day. Before I got sick I kept praying that I would stop feeling nauseaus (uh spelling??) then I finally realized  that the feeling would only go away after I threw up. It was inevitable. So I threw up. Three times. Did I feel better and not nauseus? Yes! Sorry for the gross and random example but I know that when we accept the Lord's will and get over ourselves, life will get a lot better. Repenting means changing our will and becoming more in einklang with that of the Lord's.

Sorry this email was a little rough around the edges and short. I LOVE YOU. Thanks for the good thoughts and prayers. I love being in my own personal "wilderness" out here if you know what I mean. LETS DO WORK THIS WEEK.

DEEP WATER IS WHAT I AM WONT TO SWIM IN

true words from Joseph Smith indeed

liebe grüße

Sister Mittleman